Things I miss....

I've been on my own for almost a year now and I've realized that after a 12 yr marriage there are a few things I miss....or don't!

I would say that I miss being with someone, but someone is with me every waking minute of the day. She is 3, has blonde hair and her name is Miss Oakley.

I would say that I miss the big house on the hill, but I think I prefer the little house I have now. Bonus! The "Devil" (AKA mother in law)  has never lived in the house I'm in now! Nope don't miss it!

I would say that I miss the kitchen, but I'm over the 40+ cupboards and 15+ drawers. WHere did we put the silverware? Nope don't miss that!

I would say that I miss the HUGE lawn, and its extensive flower beds, and the fruit trees that never bear any fruit, and the trees that drop pine cones that I had to pick up before every mowing. Nope don't miss it!

I would say that I miss an unexpected visitor at 6 am, walking into our house without knocking and asking why I was still in my pj's, wanting to eat our breakfast, when he had already eaten at his own house. Nope, don't miss that!

I would say that I miss the commute to work in the winter, getting stuck in the snow drifts, waiting for a pull out, sliding off the road into an empty canal, calling into work, cause I couldn't drive there. Nope I don't miss it!

So after some extensive though, trying to figure out what I DO miss? I have come up with something, the dishwasher.

Single in a Double World

So I had this conversation with my mom the other day, why can't single women have friends that are married? Why is it that men don't want their wives to hang out or go out with a single girl? Are they afraid the singleness might wear off on their wives? Or that if the single girl would talk to a guy that the married girl would have to too? I have lost many friends since becoming single. Many friends who are married, some I know are because husbands pressure them, some don't want to choose a side(which I would never ask someone to do). I do have one great friend who is still friends with Mr. Wrong ( that's what I will call my ex-husband, Mr. Wrong), and friends with me. She and her husband and kids are still great friends with both sides of the story, mine and his. But the majority of my friends from being married are gone, don't answer the phone when I call, have unfriended me on FB, all these things I can handle. I'm a big girl! My feelings might be hurt for a short time but I'll get over it. I would rather have a couple really good true friends, then a whole pile of fake worthless ones who aren't going to be there when I need a friend.

County Fairs

So we have been crafting pretty heavy with the kids. Even the boys! Mom's goal is to take over the county fair! We have been painting canvas's, building wooden structures, sewing aprons (even Gus made an apron!), picture taking is Macie's latest venture. I'm very excited as to how much stuff they have made! When it gets closer I'm sure they will make cookies and breads. But how great is it to get a ribbon? No matter what color it is! Oh yes and of course they will be making potato people! Oh how I LOVE county fairs!

someday

someday it wont hurt when I go to bed. or when i wake up. someday ill be used to being alone, and ill be ok with it. someday the rejection wont sting. someday the choice to be alone will rest in my hands. someday i wont cry myself to sleep. someday people will treat me like a normal person, like they dont feel sorry for me.someday i wont blame myself. someday i will be loved for being me and nothing else. someday it wont be hard anymore. someday.

Mom's foot stool

Can't start at the begining so I'll just start here

I'm just going to start this out with a craft or two and see where it goes from there! You're going to learn all about me and my life as a single mom, and a 911 dispatcher. Sometimes its just a plain crazy life, and other times its just perfect! Have questions or concerns? Just ask, I usually don't bite!